And smacks you down hard into a very dark hole.
Confidence in tatters, bright narratives shattered.
Your mirror on the world has exploded into a thousand tiny pieces — your flesh, pierced on the jagged shards of your own broken viewpoint.
Nothing feels good. Or right. No comfort is forthcoming. No solace in sight. Your strategies, all – striking out.
What you trusted yesterday has left you for dead, today.
You’re desperate to stay hidden in that dark place. Wrapped in a blanket of protection from the harsh glare of your own self-judgment. That consistent, persistent thought-stream, nagging at you and tearing you down.
All it takes is one clueless comment, tossed into the dry tinder of your psyche, to blow you out further towards your edge.
Through no fault of your own, you’ve internalized an erosive self-concept known as Unworthiness. Measuring your value against the who you are ‘supposed to be’, instead of the who you actually are.
Unworthiness … she’s a shy little beastie, innocent on her own merits. She lies dormant. Poised to spring into life whenever her name is called: inadequate, inappropriate, insufficient, hopeless, incompetent, not-good-enough ….
You’re desperate for an antidote, a blue pill — promising to ferret out all deficiencies and transform you into a ‘new and improved’ version of yourself. “Just like ya seen it on TV”.
To shape up those bossy little shoulds and shouldn’ts who’re whipping up one helluva food fight in your head.
We’ve all bought THAT bill of goods …
You did it wrong. So get it together and do it right!
You’re catching your groove in the fast lane of self-improvement. Ticking off your ‘should be’ to-do list: happier, smarter, younger, richer, stronger, healthier, sexier, nicer …
Omg. So exhausting.
Here’s a question.
“Every moment, every thought, every feeling, every concern, every fear, every worry, every doubt … is essential in the totality of your unique journey”. *
♪ Thank you terror,
Thank you disillusionment,
Thank you frailty,
Thank you consequence ♪
(Thank you, Alanis Morrissette)
“Your job with yourself was just to be the one who supports and respects you – the way that no one else has or can?” *
♪Thank you thank you Silence …♪